An influencer who once struggled with sex addiction has revealed why she’s chosen celibacy after a devastating break-up – declaring “no man deserves” to take her to bed.
Neyleen Ashley, 34, swore off sex following a painful split that came less than a month after losing her baby at four months pregnant.
The Florida-based model, who has 2.5 million Instagram followers and earns around £50,000 monthly on OnlyFans, says her celibacy journey is helping her heal.
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Despite creating adult content professionally and having a “high sex drive”, Neyleen is determined not to break her vow anytime soon.
“I decided to be celibate after my ex told me he didn’t want to be a father or a husband, and he wasn’t living his truth,” she told NudeNewz.
“The break-up and pain I endured put such a bad taste in my mouth about sex.
“Now the enjoyment and euphoria I once got from sex is gone.”
The Devastating Break-Up
Neyleen’s decision to become celibate followed a series of traumatic events that shattered her emotionally.
She was four months pregnant with a baby girl when tragedy struck.
“I was four months into my pregnancy with a baby girl, I even had a gender reveal but I lost the baby at month four,” she said.
The loss was made infinitely worse by her partner’s response.
“Less than a month later, still bleeding from the miscarriage, my ex told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore,” Neyleen explained.
The timing of the break-up, combined with the grief of losing her pregnancy, left her scrambling to rebuild her life.
She said: “I found myself having to scramble for a place to go, after leaving his place and having to go to work and take care of my two kids, 11 and 15, while enduring heartbreak.”
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From Addiction to Abstinence
Neyleen describes herself as a recovering “sex addict” whose compulsions previously controlled her daily life.
“I was a sex addict for a long time,” she said.
“I couldn’t leave the house because I was at home masturbating and had to have sexual release multiple times a day, if not I just couldn’t function.”
She compared the compulsion to a physical dependency.
“It felt like a cigarette I had to take a puff of, or I couldn’t go about my day without my fix,” Neyleen explained.
The addiction extended beyond physical acts to include seeking validation through digital interactions.
“That also came with the attention I was trying to receive from men, the sexting, the pictures back and forth, the dopamine hits I got from successfully pursuing them,” she said.
Despite the constant pursuit of sexual encounters, Neyleen felt empty rather than fulfilled.
“But still left me starving, because I was settling for crumbs in people, instead of loving myself,” she added.
Why Sex Lost Its Appeal
Neyleen, who has always been monogamous in her relationships, says recent experiences have fundamentally changed how she views intimacy.
She now worries about being “used” rather than genuinely connecting with partners.
“I’m afraid of people that just want to use me for sex and never get to know me as a person, or my heart,” she said.
The model believes that sexual encounters involve more than just physical interaction.
“I believe that energies get transferred through sexual intercourse and throughout the last few years, sex made me feel empty afterwards,” she explained.
“Never fulfilled, never loved… I felt like a rag doll.”
These feelings have completely eliminated the pleasure she once derived from sexual experiences.
Like other women who’ve chosen celibacy after painful relationships, Neyleen is prioritizing emotional healing over physical gratification.
The Self-Love Journey
Celibacy has become a vehicle for Neyleen to develop a healthier relationship with herself.
“Now I only love myself – in every way – I’m practising self-healing, self-love, and self-soothing, and giving myself the energy I previously gave to others,” she said.
The practice has helped her identify and resist urges that previously fed her addiction.
She’s learning to provide herself with the validation and attention she once desperately sought from men.
This shift represents a fundamental change in how Neyleen values herself and her time.
Balancing Career and Celibacy
The paradox of creating adult content while abstaining from personal sexual encounters isn’t lost on Neyleen.
She earns approximately £50,000 monthly through OnlyFans despite her celibacy vow.
For Neyleen, there’s a clear separation between professional content creation and personal intimacy.
Her work is a business transaction, while celibacy protects her emotional and spiritual wellbeing.
This distinction allows her to maintain both her income and her healing journey simultaneously.
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Still Dating – But With Boundaries
Despite her celibacy, Neyleen hasn’t given up on finding meaningful connection.
She continues going on dates, with her most recent being just a week before speaking to Nude PR.
However, she’s upfront about her boundaries from the start.
“I find it difficult because I instantly tell anyone that’s remotely interested in me that I’m celibate, but when we hang out, it always ends up that they want more,” she said.
Men often try to convince her to break her vow, viewing it as a challenge rather than respecting her decision.
“They try to convince me that my celibacy journey will end with them, that I won’t be able to resist – but I’m a Leo, and if there’s one thing about Leos, it’s that we’re hard-headed,” Neyleen said.
Finding Understanding Partners
Neyleen says she responds positively to men who show genuine understanding of her journey.
“When I’m met with kindness, and understanding people, that’s what they will get in return,” she explained.
The temptation to give in occasionally surfaces, particularly because sexual activity was her previous pattern.
“Sometimes I feel like I want to give in, because it’s what I’m used to, but the benefit is I don’t have to feel like a chore to these men that don’t care about me,” she said.
The relief of not feeling used or unappreciated outweighs any momentary desire to break her vow.
Long-Term Commitment
Neyleen is so satisfied with her celibacy journey that she’d consider maintaining it indefinitely.
“If I could stay celibate forever at this point, I would,” she said.
However, she acknowledges that her feelings may evolve over time.
“But who knows – this is a new journey for me, and I’m loving it more than I love sex,” Neyleen added.
Her openness to change while maintaining strong boundaries demonstrates a healthy approach to personal growth.
Managing Two Children
Throughout her heartbreak and transformation, Neyleen has continued caring for her two children, aged 11 and 15.
The responsibility of single parenting while navigating grief and career demands adds complexity to her situation.
Her ex-partner’s rejection of fatherhood means she’s managing her household independently.
The children provide motivation to model healthy self-respect and boundary-setting.
The Role of Grief
Neyleen’s miscarriage at four months pregnant represents a profound loss that compounded her break-up trauma.
She had even held a gender reveal party, making the loss more public and painful.
The fact that her partner left while she was “still bleeding from the miscarriage” demonstrates the depth of her abandonment.
Processing this grief while maintaining her career and caring for her children required immense strength.
Energy and Intimacy
Neyleen’s belief that “energies get transferred through sexual intercourse” reflects her spiritual approach to intimacy.
This perspective helps her understand why casual encounters left her feeling depleted rather than fulfilled.
She now protects her energy by avoiding situations that previously drained her emotionally.
The celibacy period allows her to rebuild her energetic reserves before potentially sharing them again.
What Men Get Wrong
According to Neyleen, most men she encounters fail to see her as a complete person beyond her sexuality.
They focus on her physical attributes and professional content rather than understanding her heart and personality.
This shallow approach reinforces her decision to maintain celibacy until she finds someone genuinely interested in all aspects of her.
She’s no longer willing to accept “crumbs” of attention or affection from men who don’t truly value her.
The Future
While Neyleen is committed to celibacy for now, she hasn’t closed the door on future relationships entirely.
She’s seeking something “more meaningful” than her past experiences provided.
The right person would need to respect her boundaries, understand her journey, and value her beyond physical attraction.
Until then, she’s content focusing on self-love and personal healing.
Neyleen’s story demonstrates that celibacy can be a powerful tool for recovery from both heartbreak and addiction.
Her journey challenges assumptions about women in the adult content industry and shows that professional choices don’t dictate personal ones.
